I don’t want to sleep.
OK…that’s not entirely true. At 5 AM, I wish I could sleep, but my mind’s too active and, seemingly, uncontrollable: I think about shows, past/current relationships (intimate and platonic), work, mistakes, random scenarios (real and imagined), etc, etc, ad infinitum…
Maybe “life’s too complicated,” “I make life complicated,” or some other unoriginal thought. I want the reality of an Iron & Wine song:
One more drink tonight as your gray stallion rests
Where he lays in the reins
For all of the speed and the strength he gave
One more kiss tonight from some tall stable girl
She’s like grace from the earth
When you’re all tuckered out and tame
One more tired thing the gray moon on the rise
When your want from the day
Makes you to curse in your sleep at night
One more gift to bring we may well find you laid
Like your steed in his reins
Tangled too tight and too long to fight
The warmth of Sam Bean’s voice and the beautiful simplicity of his lyrics entices me into an idyllic life of horses and stable girls.
Realistically, I need to be able to afford the stable, horses, and tall, female employees. Besides, could I really leave the comfort, the connectivity, and the knowledge behind? I don’t require much, though I think I need more. Love, food, and horses might be all that’s needed.